Saturday ´´s gone...:)

Amazing how fast time passes on weekends...Spent all day cleaning out my room. I don´t think it has ever been this messy before..:) There weren´t any spots to put your feet on while walking through my room...now it´s perfec, though. And for me this means preparing loads of stuff for school tomorrow....Argh. Just watched a great movie with Andy and we´ll go to bed now....

University life!

I don't have any time left for anything else but school, as it seems. First presentation next Tuesday on "Theories of Fascism and Totalitarism". (This means, no weekend for me.). It's almost 7 and I'm still at school. I'm doing good though.
Yesterday was cell group meeting. Very nice....sang my favourite sings, prayed, ate.....

Andy is waiting for me, I have to go home now. Tomorrow I'll go to the highschool again. Press your thumbs people will be nice to me.

Sunday....

Hey everyone!
I still can´t believe my exams are over! I feel very tired and took a nap with Andy this afternoon. I had a nice day yesterday. I went out to get new binders, folders, crayons and markers for school, watched a little bit of TV and then met Julia and her friend Julia in Kreuzberg where we went to a very good Indian restaurant for dinner. It as very nice! They have this bread that looks like a ball, as if it´s been pumped up with air. It looks unny and tastes delicious. I´ll ask my parents to go there with me when they are here in November.
I was home pretty early and watched a little bit of "Forrest Gump" with Andy, but we both had trouble staying awake long enough so we jus went to bed.
This morning we went to Nazareth church here around the corner. we both really liked the service and the pastor, so we decided we will go there on a more regular basis.
Also, I arranged a meeting with Anja. We haven´t seen each other in months and so Im looking forwar to seeing her next Sunday.
I´m nervous about having to got to that school tomorrow as an intern. Nobody cares about me there, I don´t even know which class I´ll be attending. Grg. Also, I have to buy readers and order books for my german classes, start my pilates course and go to Swedish class...It´s going to be a busy day. I have to remember to take it slow and breathe from time to time....
Also: Good luck for you exam, Pammy! I know you can do it! I´ll be thinking of you!
Have a quit Sunday everyone!

Julia and me!:)

It´s over! My exam in History as yesterday in the late afternoon, I passed with a B+ and now I´m so relieved that I don´t even know what to do with myself around here now! I spent the day with Julia whose exam was right after mine. We tried to eat some spaghetti, tokk a little walk and went to school then. Mia also came and we waited together. I was not as bad as I thought, even though my performance in Medieval History wasn´t good at all. I kind of knew that before, though. I´m so happy everything is okay now. Now I just have to straighten out all the classes for next week, get a presentation so I can´t be kicked out and then I´ll be happy.
After the exam I went to Petra´s house. Her baby Pelaiah has grown so much and he is so cute...Lisett was there also, we had dinner, talked and prayed before I went to Andy´s house where I am right now. Being an early bird, he woke me up this morning even though we didn´t go to bed before 1.30am. Talked to Merlina in PA to tell her my good news.. Yay!:):)

Well.....

Happy 23rd birthday, Andrea!:)
And: Happy belated 24th birthday, Julia M.! I´m so sorry I didn´t even write you!

I´m still alive. I´ve been studying, eating and sleeping all week. Tomorrow is the big day. I´m again so scared. Andy says I never failed an exam, why would I fail this one? I can see his point, but still...
First week of school also.....crowded classes as usual. I have to find a way not to let that stress me out the way it does right now. Oh my god.
My school internship seems to be a desaster right now. The principal just left me in the teachers room and took off. I have no idea where to go or what to do next week.
I feel like sleeping and just forgetting all these things.

Will have class in an hour - "teacher´s challenges in our society". I just hope I´ll at least have a chair to sit on.
Wil spend tomorow with Julia whose exam is right after mine.
Please press your thumbs. Thank you.

Happy dance!

I did it! I got what felt like the best B ever!:):) Oh yes! I though I was going to die!

Angels...

"We´re all angels with just one wing, and the only way we can fly is if we hug each other." Luciano de Crescenzo.

~Regine ~ Ines ~ Julia ~ Maddy ~ Jule ~ Pamela~
THANK YOU!

Commit your works to the Lord...

Im so exhausted. Tomorrow is my exam and due to headaches I coulnd´t study anymore today. It´s a 50 % chance I´ll pass. It really depends what he´ll be asking me. Tomorrows verse is:
Commit your work to the Lord and then your plans will succeed. Proverbs 16:3
I immediately felt relieved when I read this. Áfter all it´s not the end of the world if I fail.

Went to Jule´s bithday party yesterday. I was so tired I coulnd´t really enjoy it. I felt sorry about that...by 9 pm I just wanted to go home and I just felt overwhelmed by everything that was going on. Kept thinking "It´s a little bit too much to take right now."
Saw new ultrasound pictures of Maddy´s baby. So amazing to see this.
I´m kind of dreading the new semester. By next Friday I´ll be ready for vacation but then it just begins. I can already picture myself collapsing over Christmas at home, not having any energy to listen to other people or really relate to them. That was the situation last year. I was caught up in my own thoughts and the result was people felt I wasn´t interested in them.
I have to figure out a way not to get overwhelmed by school, work and people around me.
Will start meeting my cell group soon. I always like going there, having dinner together and then sing and talk about how things are going.
Please keep your fingers crossed for tomorrow, 3 pm. I´ll let you know!

Birthday Girl!

Happy 22nd Birthday, Jule! I wish you all the best for baby Ella and everything you wish for! I love you!

Sitting in the Library again. Luckily, Ines, Pamela and Mia are with me an we can take our breaks together. I haven't even read half of what I have to for ym exam and I'm really scared now. I have tomorrow and Thursday morning left to get in my head whatever is possible. Urgh. Wish this would be over already!

I found out my Mom and sister found this blog!:) (Normally not many people visit my website) Now I actualy have to start paying attention to what I'm writing here!

Tonight is Jule's birthday party. I hope I'll be able to enjoy it a little. I won't go home too early so I can get up on time tomorrow to study!

Greetings to Annelie with my former hostfamily in New Jersey. I'm so happy things are working out for you and that your happy!
Bye for today.

Sunday morning....

It´s Sunday already.....Oh gosh....I stayed at the Library till 3pm yesterday, then I was so hungry I had to go home!:) Andy and I had Spaghetti and fell asleep on my bed afterwards. I have no idea why I was so tired. We decided to go to his house ater to watch a movie on TV that turned out pretty good.
I´m still in my PJ´s here, just started with Linguistics. I´m so running out of time. AAAH!

Girls night out!

Hey!
Couldn´t write for a couple of days as I have no internet at home and I haven´t been at Andy´s house for a while....I´m writing from the library here, I have to study Linguistics as the exam is next Thursday. I don´t know how I´ll pass but I´ll try at least. It wouldn´t be a problem if I had started earlier.
Thursday I spent all day at school with Ines and Regine picked us up at 6.30pm to go to Maddy´s house. We had a fun night, cooking Chinese food and eating chocolate cream after. Of course we also talked a lot about Maddy´s first baby due in March. She is still so skinny, just a little hint of a baby belly..:) She´ll find out what she´s going to have on Monday. I´m guessing it´s a boy. Can´t tell you why, just a feeling.
Yesterday was sleeping day, I was so tired after staying up late on Thursday. At 6pm I went to Frauke to help her moving in into her new apartment. There were so many people there to help so it didn´t take long and I was home by 8. Andy stopped by and I went to bed early.

Migrane attacks!

Hey everyone!
Yesterday was a very good day. I met with Julia at the library around 9 am and we actually stayed there until 6 pm...I started a paper I have to give to my professor of Medieval History tomorrow. After the library I went to get stuff for dinner with Ines. At home I was so tired, all I could do was take a shower, grab some cookies and watch FRIENDS in my bed...I was so exhausted!
This morning I woke up and got headaches...Andy was the best guy ever, he took me to the library by car because some books were due, then he took me home with him and I went to bed. I still don´t feel good, but it´s better. I didn´t get anything done, of course. I really have to start now!

Greetings to Matt in Michigan. Seriously, I don´t know what it is about the coasts..:)

I did it!

Just finished my paper. I´ll hand it in tomorrow. Whenever I´m done with something I can´t get rid of it, so it actually also "feels" done!:)
My friend Merlina from PA called me this afternoon. It was a total surprise, a very happy one of course! We talked almost an hour....we have a lot of chatching up to do, I´m happy we can be together around Christmas and in March when I´ll be visitin her in Lancaster. A roadtrip to Washington D.C. is already planned. I never managed to go to Arlington and this time I really want!
I´ll watch "Tatort" now with "my" two guys, who by the way, invited me to pizza tonight...:) I´m turning into a spoiled princess it seems!

I wanted to thank Jule, Julia, Ines, Regine and all the others who support me during this time! Couldn´t do it without you guys!

Lend your voices only.....

Lend your voices only
to sounds of freedom.
No longer lend your strengh to that
which you wish to be free from
fill your life with
love and bravery
and you shall lead
a life uncommon.

Jewel Kilcher

Hey!

Talked to my Mom last night for over an hour. I had such a strange feeling inside me after I had a dream about my brother´s best friend Thomas being killed in Iraq. He wasn´t even there, he was stationed in Afghanistan for over 6 months, but still. So I called home...of course he was fine..but then my MOm told me a girl from my old school, 18 years old, killed herself on Sunday. And we started to talk about my Grandmother and Grandfather passing away this year within a week. Even though nothing happend, I couldn´t get rid of this dark feeling for the rest of the day.
My brother René (11) came to speak with me on the phone and then first thing he said was: Hi, well, I miss you soooo much, you know. That was so sweet! He is so cute, brings me to tears within a minute, really....

Today it´s Sunday....I´m working on my paper which will be done soon. Amazing how things can change within a week. Suddenly I can work again. I´m thankful for that.

Library Marathon...

Hey!
I like this place so much better to write than updating my homepage every day which never does what it is supposed to do! This just great!
I spent half of my day at the library with Julia...I like going there with someone else, it makes me not want to leave any moment..:) I can´t even start to think how much work is still ahead of me. At least I got out of this " I´m so depressed"-habit. Nothing changes by whining all the time. Thank god I´m always starting to get on my own nerves before I start driving other people crazy. I really have to work on my attitude though.
Set achievable goals and then actually do it! I´m so happy I managed to hand in my paper on time. I started to work on another one I´ll finish tomorrow and I did some Linguistics....so I´m alright, I guess.

I also finally found out which school I´ll be going to do my internship at beginning in 3 weeks! It´s a nice school from what you can tell by looking at their webpage, it´s in a good part of the city...so we´ll see how it´ll be going!
Andy bought a DVD-player last week and I now can watch some of my FRIENDS episode my computer always rejected for one reason or another....yay!:)
Any and Basti are in Wolfsburg today at a soccer game. I´m expecting them back late today, drunk but happy.....

It´s me!

Hey! Welcome to my new diary!